Blue-ed

Time really flies, now I only left with around 3 more weeks till the end of my PTP phase. 2 months just pass like that.
Then the real thing starts, BMT phase. It is the time where the real shit happens and it is where I get to experience the real army stuff, army knowledge.

I am looking forward to my fieldcamp and live firing. I think BMT phase will pass by very quick too, because of the packed schedule we had.

It is also where our real army life begin. Where we will be posted to our unit. I hope I can get into command school, so I hope my IPPT can get at least a pass before the end of PTP.
Then it will be silver during BMT, then gold soon after.

A few more hours and I will need to travel back to Pasir Ris to book in. It is the 2nd book in, which also means I have been in army for close to a month. Time flies pretty fast.

Actually I am very glad that I was in Scout(Uniform) group during secondary time. I find that, I am more able to adapt to the discipline needed, long days away from home, sense of urgency, and much much more.

In Scouts, we do things that are related to NS, or similar to it. Field camp, marching, footdrills, survival, discipline, and leadership.

I am having no problem adapting to the army life now, I feel fine and the intensity of the training currently is below my expectations. I guess they are giving chance for those that can’t cope so well yet. Well, eventually we will get the max intensity of punishment and training. Just have to take one step at a time and enjoy the less tedious time we are having now.

I really hate to see people, especially spoiled brat, that keeps whining about home sick, tiring exercises, strict discipline, and whatever not. Yes I know they are not used to or exposed to these kind of treatment, but I am still quite pissed off with it. You are in the ARMY,you are a MAN, stop your fucking whining and get on with life.

Anyway, I am really not pushing myself to my limit, and I really hope that I will have a stronger mind in the weeks to come.

AND MY CHIN UP IS BULLSHIT!

Finally, the time have come! My major change in life will begin in about 14 hours, where I will from being a young adult, into so called true man.

Although it is not the actual BMT, I wanted to get into ptp because I am lazy and don’t have the time to maintain my fitness ever since I graduated from secondary school.

My stamina and fitness have deteriorated by a huge gap, and I can’t wait to get them back into how I was in secondary school! Or even better! Thou, it will not be a quick and easy journey, this is what I deserved for laziness. Well, its better than staying at home, working and using my computer for days. I get to condition my body back on track and start leading a better and healthier life.

I have been waiting for National Service since I was in secondary, I was looking forward to army training, live firing, grenade throwing and such!

I dunno why, but I feel excited just thinking about going into NS. Guess I was a scout in secondary school, and I missed the fun times we had together, being punished and doing various things as a uniform group. I miss the pioneering, the mud slide at Sarimbun Scout Camp, footdrill under the hot sun and many more.

I know it will not be the same without those that are the same with you, those who spend their time together with you, the sweat, pain and fun that we shared and gone through. It is them, my fellow peers that makes those punishment seems fun and less torturing.

Guess I will step out of my comfort zone and into my stretching zone this time. I want to see if it makes a differences and if I am better off this way. It is time to move on.

My bags are packed, body filled with excitement and ready for the road ahead of me!!!

After working OT for a few days straight, I am a little tired and sleepy.

Went for Mother’s day dinner straight after last day of work and then graduation ceremony the following morning.

Dam, it was tiring, but worth it. My days have not been so busy and packed like this before, and I kind of enjoyed it.  It was better than waking up in the morning and using the computer from morning to night, and then repeat for the next day.

At least I am outside, doing stuffs and earning some income instead of wasting my time and youth at home. I don’t mind if I am earning money at home, or doing some enriching things like, learning programming, or learning new softwares and such, but I am just too lazy and unmotivated to actually go do it.

I have wasted A LOT of time and not making full use of them when I have the chance. Well, I guess things will change after I enter into NS. I’ve planned to use this 2 years in NS, to train and to take this time to think and reflect, to figure out what I wanted to do, what I want to have and what I want to continue studying for my future job.

And If I enjoyed the army, I might consider signing on, well, maybe not the army, but more to police? Can I? I don’t think so right?

I wanted to call and request to change to SPF instead of SAF, but I don’t know what’s stopping me. Laziness? And perhaps I know that most likely they will not allow it.

Well, anyway, I am still having mixed feelings about whether to continue working at Far East Flora until I entered NS, or should I follow what most people said, to enjoy my remaining days before I enter NS.

But the thing is, I feel that I have been “enjoying” my days ever since I graduated from secondary schools. I have not been working, going out and doing things. I stayed home often and use the computer, either surfing net, watching videos and playing games. I don’t want to keep doing that, and want to start making a difference in my life.

Well, I will think about one thing at a time, decide then move on to think about the other “problems’ I had.

Didn’t expect it to be that early. Oh well, I get to finish it early. Time for some fun and exercise!